If God asked you for permission before He allowed your life to get painful and messy, I imagine like me, you would quickly reply, “I don’t want to!”
“I don’t want to . . . endure, suffer, grieve, lose, forfeit, repent, surrender, forgive, etc.”
“It’s too hard. It’s too painful. I’m not strong enough. I can’t do it.”
I’ve not only found myself saying the words. I had a time when with fist clenched, like a spoiled four year old, I shook my hand at the heavens and shouted, “I don’t want to!” Not once, not twice, but probably half a dozen times.
I knew the Holy Spirit had spoken to my heart. I knew it was more than time to surrender a situation . . . to lay it at the throne of grace and let God be God in every area of my life.
But God was not acting fast enough. I cried and prayed. I searched for solutions. I tried everything and anything I could to end the pain and clean up the mess. God’s timetable was not matching my wants.
After yet another tantrum, as my shouts slowly turned to streams of flowing tears, I reached a place of stillness and heard the Holy Spirit quietly whispered, “Let it go. It’s time. Let it go”
I answered, “I don’t want to, but if You want me to then You will have to pull it from my clenched fist and take it from me. I will trust You to know and do what is best, but I still don’t want to!”
Not exactly a surrender I’m proud of; nonetheless, one that God chose to receive in grace and mercy.
And although it’s hard to explain or understand, I could almost feel my clenched fists relax along with the emotion I held so tightly.
Like a gentle parent, the Lord coaxed from my life what He knew was harmful and tenderly said, “It’s going to be okay. Trust Me. I will take care of this for you.”
Too often, we believe we need to have the strength of will to surrender, but…
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Surrender trusts that God’s will is best.
Surrender trusts that God will give me strength when I have none of my own.
Surrender is Jesus in the Garden:
“Abba, Father,” He cried out, “everything is possible for you. Please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want Your will to be done, not mine.” Mark 14:36
Surrender is David crying out in faith:
In my anguish I cried to the Lord, and He answered by setting me free. Psalm 118:5
Surrender is you and me trusting God will give everything we need:
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
“Whatever God is urging you to clear away cannot begin to be compared to what He ultimately wants to bring you.” ~ Beth Moore
God’s love is so great. His grace is sufficient. He offers freedom to tantrum throwing spoiled children and waits patiently when we cry, “I don’t want to!”
And He never stops whispering, “Let it go. Trust me.”
What are you holding in a clenched fist? When have you heard His whispered offer to surrender?