A True Confession – I Want You to Like Me
Yesterday we talked about the difference between confession and repentance . . . confession = admission of guilt and repentance = remorse and asking for forgiveness. I’m going to start today with confession. True confession.
I want you to like me.
Truth – bloggers sit day after day pouring out their hearts through their fingertips. Christian bloggers are no different. We go to blogging conferences, check our stats, promote ourselves, search online, check our Facebook page, and try to compare ourselves with other bloggers up to the point of coveting but not beyond.
Why confess? Because this struggle makes faith-filled bloggers question their motives. They vacillate between glorifying God, sharing their story, and seeking popularity.
Last week I received a prayer request from someone wanting God to make him the most famous entertainer of all time.
I wondered if he knew what he was asking?
I think deep down we’re all people pleasers. We all want to be liked.
This hit me hard during my prayer time this morning.
I started with praise. I worshipped God for who He is . . . Sovereign, Master, Lord. And then I stopped.
Do I really believe what I’m saying?
Sovereign – Is He above all others in excellence, rank, and authority in my life?
Master – Do I give Him power and control over my life?
Lord – Do I really trust Him so much I’m willing to surrender everything to Him?
Confession Leading to Repentance
It’s hard to admit my continued struggle with fear of rejection and my need for people to like me. By God’s grace it doesn’t paralyze me like it once did, but it still keeps me from being completely surrendered to my Heavenly Father. And for that I’ve repented and asked for forgiveness.
I cried out and asked God to mold me into someone who is completely surrendered to His plans and purposes.
And He said
That will require heart surgery . . . a cutting away of those things that hurt You and pull you away from Me.
For the word of God is alive and powerful. It is sharper than the sharpest two-edged sword, cutting between soul and spirit, between joint and marrow. It exposes our innermost thoughts and desires. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God. Everything is naked and exposed before his eyes, and he is the one to whom we are accountable. Hebrews 4:12-13
I’m praying for His strength and courage. I’m praying for obedience.
Do you need heart surgery, too?
Do you struggle with your desire to put God first and your need to be liked?
Do you fight fear that prevents you from being completely surrendered?
Heart surgery requires trust.
Our Surgeon is completely trustworthy. He gives life. The life we crave.
The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life. John 10:10
I know what my heart wants, but I can still look in the wrong place for satisfaction.
I believe it’s time for surgery. I believe it’s time to completely surrender and trust the Surgeon.
you’re talking to me, and I am listening to you 🙂
I can relate, Deb, as you know. Looking for the day when I will be free from all my writing insecurities. 🙂